Today was a long, overwhelming day...and searching through my emotions I found there is one that has kept me going all day. <3
Guest blog by my great friend, Sam Noble. Thank you, Sam, for being an amazing ally.
Trigger warning: ableism, fictional and real violence against autistic individuals, marginalization of Autistic characters in a play ostensibly about them, and murder of an Autistic character by a parent.
I recently watched a play at Richard Hugo House, in Seattle, called “Hunting Dinosaurs: A Play about Autism.” It was written by Sarah Stillion and produced by Bare Bones Productions. Stillion is the mother of an autistic child, and her play is primarily about the experience of raising an autistic child. It is the story of three families:
In between segments about these families, there are scenes in which a paleontology professor educates his 'class' (the audience) about dinosaurs. His statements about dinosaurs are often veiled statements about autistics, and in fact, autistics are referred to as 'dinosaurs' throughout the play.
This summer had been eventful, in a good way! And my health is continuing to improve! It would be difficult to blog about all the great things that had happened, because of all the writing/language/processing it would take.
So, I'm starting back slowly. I plan to start doing some brief blogging about things like new visuals I make (or have made recently), new life tools, self advocacy tools, and things related to:
being autistic, chemically sensitive, having processing difficulties, friendships, relationships, and stimming.
My blogs will be fairly inconsitent, still. Maybe a few times a month, to several times a week. now quite sure. I am also *still* not finished reposting all my prior posts from the past few years. Still working on it.
Way-To-Stim-Wednesday will come back, with time, when I have more processing to give to the video-creating, and when I can start consistently blogging again. :-)
Welcome to my new website!
It was a weird, and annoying, process switching it over, but here it is, and here I am. A lot happened in the last few months, and I am SO glad I was able to take a break, even if it did mess with my preferred routines. And now, back to blogging about live with autism, and sharing my artwork.
I am sure you have noticed that my prior blog posts are gone (dating back to Feb 2012).
Yes, that is true...temporarily.
My prescription to myself:
I am exhausted, mentally, physically and spiritually.
I'm still in a "fog" and recovering from some health issues caused by extreme anxiety and shutting-down, from last week. My mind and thoughts are working fine now, but most of my thoughts aren't translating correctly through words and communication. I really pushed my limits too far. i do that a lot. Although, it happens WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY less than it used to; it is very hard to find out where those limits are. How far is too far? My good friend Jade recently wrote an interesting blog post about limits here.
These are the times in life that are more difficult...when I feel perfectly normal inside, but outside, and physically, everything is foreign, everything is scary, difficult, louder, painful, time consuming, exhausting...even more so than usual. I can always tell when I REALLY need to recover when it takes longer to figure out my fine motor movements- like writing, picking things up, and forming words.
The good thing is that it's not as bad as it used to be. The more I grow, the more I learn, the more I implement good coping methods, the more prepared I am for the world, the more proactive I can be - the more I actually enjoy my life.
Two important social events last weekend. Still recovering from overstimulation, anxiety, under-awareness, over-awareness, and physical pain.
Unable to write WTSW blog for this week.
Instead, Robbie has a question for all of you:
What is a way of stimming that has often helped you? Share your favorite stim, or the stim that helps you the most! Or both!
-Anabelle & Robbie
Special blog post today!!!
Today is February 1st, which mean I have officially done a full year of a-jelly-a-day AND my blog!! This process has been very satisfying for me and I am very proud of myself for finishing this project. I started this project to:
1) to improve my drawing skills
2) embrace my obsession for jellies, instead of hiding it
3) to prove to myself that I can and DO complete things
My original inspiration for this project:
Make Something 365
As closure to my project, I would summarize of the last year of my life through my jelly creations (Also, I think I may have a small party. I heard there may be a homemade jellyfish cake in my future):
(click on month names for the full month of jellies)
Happy Way-To-Stim-Wednesday everyone!
Stimming (also known as self-regulating) is any repetitive movement that is calming to an [autistic] individual. Stimming is a way that many autistic individuals use to calm themselves, myself included.
It's winter and lately I have been a stimming fanatic! I am REALLY ready for some warmer weather!!
I'm still not back doing WTSW videos yet, but some content is just not great video material. For example, this week. Nobody, including myself, wants to watch me hysterically crying.
Crying is a way to stim that I find most helpful when I am so overloaded that there is no possible way for me to release energy without physically exploding. It's certainly much safer than stims such as slamming my hands and arms repeated on a floor or wall.
There are SO many changes in life, all the time. Especially in winter. Everything is darker, colder, full of different daily processes, and outside activities involve a lot more preparation. Bleh.
But. . . there is one thing that doesn't change. . .
something that is always there for me, even when the world feels like one big attack on my senses.
And that thing is: